Sometimes there are moments in life that shape your entire future. These moments can come in form of people, things and places. For me it was a special moment that came in form of a magnificent place, New York City.
The loss of my mother left me in void, a void that I felt only one year post and a void that took over my life. I struggled through every day and detested the notion of being normal. I repeatedly woke up with a lump in my throat and closed my heavy eyes praying for a better tomorrow, but all I got was a darker day.
Maybe it was escapism or maybe it was pulling myself out of the situation to find some contentment, because I questioned my ability to ever find it again. I packed my bags and retreated to the chaos of New York City, extremely lonely yet so comforting. Now almost a year in a half later I can say I lived a brief moment of the AMERICAN DREAM. Like a complicated scattered puzzle I found bits of myself. I saw happiness, experienced bouts of solitude, felt peace, almost touched love, discovered my passion and most importantly found contentment. I wont say I have completed my puzzle but I’m pretty damn close.
I lived there with such conviction believing that I would never come back. I couldn’t come back. What would I come back to? But as days closed in I realized New York has given me everything I needed. It has shaped my future from hereon forth to take forward and back to where I belong. I have this innate yearning to spread all that I have learnt and help people in my own country. Cancer Exercise does not exist in India and needs to be implemented now. Thats what I wish to change and that’s when my puzzle will be completed.
So as I wake up feeling alive and bit jetlagged at the moment, I close my eyes not praying for a better tomorrow but thankful for a fabulous day!